Here it goes

During vacation it dawned on me. I'm the biggest I've ever been. I felt so uncomfortable.

"I'm seeing parts of me that were never meant to be."

I found this website.

Well, I didn't find it so much as in I kept seeing it pop up and decided to check it out.

bodybuilding.com

I explored this website for hours.

Ok, first of all this website isn't just for body builders. It's for anyone who wants to get fit.

They have just about everything:

Workout Plans

BodySpace - Their online community

Workouts

Nutrition

Supplementation

Motivation

A store (think like a store much better than GNC)

and a Forum

This website is chock full of information and everything you need to start your fitness journey. 

As I traveled around the site I realized that the plans they offered - weight loss, body building, toning, and transforming were all free!

I decided to dive right in - I found a plan and joined their online community. They even help you with choosing the correct plan. You're able to keep track of all your stats and share your goals and even share progress photos!

I believe I found my perfect plan: 

And did I mention it's free?!?

As I've stated before I've tried about everything. But I'm horrible at sticking to something. But, I'm going to try my hardest. I'm starting June 30th. Why didn't I start earlier you may ask? Well, this time, instead of getting the information and quickly starting a few days later, I wanted to be completely ready.

I ordered my supplements from bodybuilding.com on Sunday (6/22) and they were on my doorstep the next day! I've never received something so early! Tonight, I'm making my budget and grocery list. Tomorrow, I'll go grocery shopping and meal prep. Sunday, I'll post pictures and stats - And I'll check in once a a week to share my transformation!

I'd love for you to join me. Let's get moving and finally get the bodies we want!

welcome

hi, i'm lauren.

i blog over here.
i love blogging about what's going on in my life...
but i needed an avenue to share my fitness journey.


this is going to be my journey.
i need some accountability.
my waistband keeps growing and my will-power keeps shrinking.

i want to be raw and honest here.

first things first, in the past month and a half, i've signed up for 4 fitness challenges and have spent a little bit of $$. and not even finished one week of any of those challenges.

i thought they would help. i thought i could do this. these past two weeks i wore myself out working, singing, working out too late and just not doing great self-care.

so this is where my real journey begins! finding what works for me.

in my last post, i wrote the good, the bad and the ugly.
the more i dwell on my weight and how unhealthy i am, the more defeated i feel.

so here i am. simply me, trying to be whole.
what will you see here:

• my triumphs
• my failures
• my likes and dislikes
• things that work
• things that don't
• complete honesty

what do you think? will you join me--- if you're on a journey to becoming whole, i'd love to follow along. we can cheerlead each other on! 

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starting over

i've struggled with my weight my whole adult life. i didn't get the good metabolism genes. both of my siblings are slim and trim and i seem to gain fat like a magnet grabs metal.

 

every time, i say this is different, signing up for challenge after challenge and failing by day 2 because of being tired and burned out.

 

i wrote something a little while ago, and i think it's time to share and to do:

there is will or there is won't

there is do or there is don't

there is can or there is can't

trying isn't committing

there isn't an in-between

i want to be committed

i need to be committed

i am committed

 

it's that simple. i'm tired of feeling uncomfortable in my own skin.

 

i have a few hurdles and hard areas, but let's talk first about what's going for me.

1. i have a great gym - it's basic (planet fitness), but has everything i need
2. i love running
3. once i start to work out the adrenaline gets pumping and I enjoy  it even when it’s hard
4. eating clean is fun - i love creating new recipes

here are my stupid hurdles.

1. after 2 days i am unable to keep working out.
2. when it comes to HIIT's i'm unable to finish them
3. i get embarrassed at the gym and sometimes leave early because i feel like i'm doing everything wrong
4. as much as i love clean eating, i love junk food so much more

have you read my story before? is it you? 

the purpose of this blog is just for me to journal my fitness journey, share my failures, and celebrate my victories.